Joy is Coming...

Many of you have known that I knew our third child was going to be a boy long before we were even pregnant, and I'm so excited to finally share with you how he got his name. The story is a little, long, but I promise it's worth it. After we lost Josiah, we were in a whirl wind of emotions. We had so many questions. It's amazing actually to look back and see God's hand at work in our story. I was adamant on having a VBAC with Josiah. I mean seriously, adamant. There was a day shortly after we came home from the hospital we were sitting on the deck talking with our parents about "why". Why did this happen? Why didn't we have a cause? I finally let it out, "Why did I want to have a VBAC so badly? If I'd only had a c section would Josiah be here with us?" Then my mom said something that I can still hear so clearly today, "Amanda, don't you think that no matter how you had Josiah, this was God's plan?" I could immediately fee

There have been so many emotions since we found out we were expecting our third child. It's so hard to even explain to someone who hasn't experienced pregnancy after losing a child at full term with an uncomplicated pregnancy . There have been feelings of sheer panic, fear, doubt and worry. Every doctor's appointment brings back memories, and each time we have to wait to hear baby's heartbeat stops ours for those moments.  Mostly, though we've been filled with joy and the peace that surpasses all understanding.  Our peace is in knowing that God is in control. We also have felt the prayers that many of you have told us you're praying!  We feel blessed to know that God has given us another child and we will lovingly accept for however long He chooses. Though we are fervently praying for a healthy child, born screaming and that we'll be able to bring this baby home!  Our 20 week ultrasound was no exception to the nerves, only this time we brought Jonah alo